This Little Boy Who Was Living His Life Through His Friends

There was once a little boy who was living his life through the eyes of his friends. He loved them so much, and respected their opinion so much, that he thought they knew better than him what was good for him. But see, what he didn’t realize then, is that they were all different individuals and that he would be oh so wrong to live his life according to them.
One day, this little boy encountered this fabulous lady. She was beautiful, elegant, and happy. She was smart, independent and driven. She made him feel like a man, inspired him, and was always there for him no matter what. The more he got to know her, the more he saw her as perfection, as a Queen, a lady you want to spend the rest of your life with. This little boy really wanted to love her, but he was scared to a level he couldn’t control. Because see, this little boy had opened his heart too many times before, and too many times before he got hurt and made a joke of by young ladies who didn’t care enough about him. So when this little boy met this amazing woman, he didn’t know what to do, for she was too good to be true. She kept telling him she loved him, she kept telling him she cared, that she understood his pain so well, she was once herself there. She was also scared if loving him, she scared he would leave, but she didn’t want to listen to her fears, because inside of her she knew, that this little boy was was going to blossom to be amazing, and she wanted to be by his side.
The fear grew in this little boy’s heart. The fear didn’t let him decide, to become the prince for this lady, to take this lady by his side.
So he seek the advice of his best friends, since they got to one day meet her and what they said sealed his fate, shocked him at first, but settled in, and made him leave this young lady. The friends thought she was too much for him, that she will never ever stay with him. A lady like that, they said, wants a more mature man who can offer her the world. They thought he was too young, they thought he was not accomplished, that he would fall hard for her, and she would never reciprocate.
His feelings were so strong for her, so immensely uncontrollable. He saw her as his Princess, he saw her as his partner, he felt the deepest connection so fast that he, himself couldn’t believe it would last.
So with the advice of his friends and his own hesitations, he decided to leave the young lady and when he told her, she already knew. She tried to reassure him the best she knew how, she tried to make him see the connection they had and the love that was growing. But inside of her she knew that she was not strong enough to overcome his friends and this little boy’s fears and hesitations.
She cried so hard, she hurt so deep that she locked herself away from the world for months.
Eventually she healed and was ready to live again. She regretted this little boy’s story, she wished she could have broke down his walls, but she decided to move on for good, and what came next was unbelievable. Her future was bright, her future was grand and she found the perfect partner to be by her side. This man was young, much younger than her for the eyes of the world, and he was very smart too. He was there for her, she was there for him and together they conquered the world with the deepest love there was.
This little boy for his part never forgot this young lady. As he grew older so did his regrets and when he witnessed this young lady’s life his love for her reached incommensurable heights. His feelings for her never left him and became unmanageable at times. Every woman he met he compared them to her. All his life he was looking for what he felt for her over and over in the body and heart of others. But no other woman made him feel so much like a man, as this young lady once did. He was never as proud of them, or as proud of him when with them, and never lived this intensity in love he once felt with her. He eventually settled for a beautiful young lady, whom he loved very much, but never as much as the young lady he once knew. The day of his death, on his bed, he had one last thought for her and he realized, how much his heart ached all his life with the longing for this young lady he once knew. The love of his life was one and only. It had always been her and nobody ever removed from his heart the feelings he still had for her. And with his last breath, he realized that he should have tried to find her again a long time ago, that he should have followed his heart in the first place and never listen to his friends or societal standards. With his last breath, he thought of her, with his last breath he felt her, with his last breath he loved her.
So don’t live your life with regrets my friends, just live your life and trust yourself. For all your fears and all your friends don’t represent what your heart knows. The world teaches you to make decisions with your head, but if you stay honest with yourself you will know. All your life is driven by your heart, small or big, all the decisions you make, that you find once ‘crazy’ are the decisions that make you move forward to realms you wouldn’t even know to consider as yours. You can make your life grand, you can make your life happy, if you only trust yourself in this world, trust you heart and just live.